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Before our Kula session, I wrote in my journal that more than anything I want to be able to hold my presence while around other people, and within my presence to retain an awareness of this miracle of existence. Being alive is so strange, and it seems like maybe what we call samsara is the state where people are moving around in life without acknowledging the miracle at all. But I can never stop thinking about it. All of us here together on a rock rotating around the sun, isn't it wild?! In my quiet, private moments— which feel like states of Shiva— I can grasp that yes all this must be divine, but in the rest of my life I usually can't register this awareness with all the action of the world around me. In some blessed-feeling moments, a person will look into my eyes and tell me that they too perceive the miracle, but it's rare (and it usually makes me fall in love with them). Mostly this is something I am always thinking about alone. When I am busy in the world, in the flow of interaction, I find it difficult to remember everything I know— if feels like it's too big a paradox to hold in my awareness. Studying Shakti's power feels helpful. I just tried the meditation suggested by Shunyaji from our session and I could feel Shakti energy moving through my body, helping to embody me, holding and protecting my more etheric spiritual consciousness. Incorporating the sensation in my body helped me to remain more focused in my meditation, like the body suddenly had the important job of maintaining the container for my spirit. I am looking forward to continuing working with Shiva and Shakti to support me in carrying my sacred awareness of this surprising gift of life with me wherever I am.