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Last night after the connected Samara Surfers circle I had dinner with someone in my family who has caused me a lot of trauma in the past. I found myself feeling and acting completely differently than I ever had so I sat down to write a thank you note to the goddess. I wanted to share it here.

Thank you goddess for the lightness in my heart.

I have spent years feeling angry and scared of her. But tonight with all your blessings and teachings (bhakti, karma and Jñāna yoga) through the shastra and our teacher I saw myself as Atman and her as Ishvara. I saw us as one. I did not have to try to do anything cognitively I felt it from my hridaya. I was in full shrada. I felt it and it flowed in a way that felt natural and untainted-pure (vimala). I felt a freedom from all time and space and a knowing that the abuse I underwent led me to this exact moment and without it I would not be here. I felt blissful, and expansive. It was a moksha moment for me for sure!

I kept feeling in my heart- I am divine. I am not broken.

Thank you for the teachings my dear teacher. I am not sure if I used all the sanskrit terms correctly as I practice integrating.

Jai Maa.💓💫