"This is not mine" contemplation
I am grateful for the abundance of teachings this week from our guru. Beginning with her profound workshop on Atman for the Theosophical Society my jiva felt welcomed to consider a broader Self and to release what l am not. Then listening and re-listening to this week's karma session on Yajna I felt a deep knowing that letting all my actions flow through me back to Ishvara is the natural order because there is no separation between Atman and Brahman/Ishvara. I am not being taught a new way to act, but being reminded and remembering that there is no other way to act when I accept the knowledge that I am Atman. This reminds me of the teaching from the Lakshmi course where we were encouraged to embody Lakshmi and act like her (godly and generous). Yajna is how the universe is to us so us acting from that way is another way for me to feel connected to my Atman.
I also appreciated so much how our teacher shared the practice of giving whatever we receive back to Ishvara and to ancestors. Historically I have felt frustrated with my ancestors and even blamed them for some intergenerational patterns, but the idea of sending back the gifts that come to me because of this wisdom felt really refreshing and more dharmic. I received appreciation after having shared some light recently from this wisdom I have been gifted by our guru and gave that appreciation back to the lineage and Ishvara as the phrase "it is not mine" kept reverberating.
"I am not that and this is not mine" have been carrying me this week.
Jai Maa!
Thank you for your deep share Devi Priya. I too have been keeping the mantra of there is no separation between atman and Ishvara within.