Contemplation session stirring
Jai Maa.
Thank you Sahdvis Aparna and Ishani for the nourishing, integrative and guiding contemplation session you led on Tuesday evening. Your teachings helped solidify the concept of yajana for me and moved my experience from intellectual to lived. Just this morning I found myself in the position of performing a generous act for someone and found my ego questioning whether it was a "smart move" in the long run. I was able to notice that this was my ego just doing what it has been taught to do-look out for me/mine- and suggested it come snuggle with me and the goddess. I instantly felt more spaciousness and connected to the cosmic reciprocity. I was not "doing" something for another person. I was simply giving in the cycle of all that I have received from the goddess through this person. There was a sense that this interaction is not transactional, but spiritual. The divine light in me was connecting to the divine light in them-nothing more nothing less. Just a flow of Maa and yajana.
Jai Gurudev
Appreciate you highlighting that phrase "smart move" as a telltale sign that it's probably not yajna if that is part of the equation. Thank you for this reflection.