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This morning as I sat at my altar looking at the various idols which are symbolic of the Saguna Ishvara to me, tears of surrender flowed down my cheeks. The Karma Yoga teachings have been a profound revelation for me personally and I have been struggling with what it means to integrate these teachings into my day to day life. When I intellectually try and understand them, my beautiful brain feels like 'I got this' I know how to do it and then a wave of samsara hits me and I tumble down with my small self trying its best to protect what it thinks is important to be a human and to be who it thinks I should be!

Those days are hard and the nights are sleepless yearning to find a way to embody these teachings beyond the brain, beyond the mind, beyond the intellect! This morning as I sat at my altar, I decided to surrender that yearning and that small self which has been struggling to make sense and be a perfect student and have a perfect spiritual journey! Surprisingly when I did that, a sense of calmness flooded my body, I could feel my shoulders relax, the aching pain in my neck reduced a little and my mind's eye settled in the silence of my heart! There was a deep knowing in those few seconds (maybe a moksha moment:) that all I needed to do was to surrender, to stop struggling, to stop expecting and just to remember that I am just a vehicle of the greater divine will! Thank you to our guru, Acharya Shunya ji and her teachings, my small self has a refuge and a anchor to hold on to as I navigate the perilous waters of my own subjective reality! Blessed to have this morning indeed!