A little moment of finally getting it
Tuesday night after our Karma Yoga session (on Emptying out the small self ) I was trying to fall asleep, my mind doing its usual routine of trying to relax but still relentlessly trying to grasp the ungraspable, when suddenly I felt a burst of clarity in my forehead and I thought, "I don't have to understand! I'm just an instrument!" It was like my ego finally, for a minute, understood how to get onto a leash and be led by something greater. It was so relaxing! I had attended the Study Pod on Monday and also had rewatched episode 36 on Remembering, and I think this combination of efforts plus Shunyaji's review of the material (and probably also doing the Gayatri sadhana) helped me finally start to get it. My ego is still attempting to wander all over the place and straining on the leash but it was such a grace to feel this realization for a minute that I really don't have to try to steer myself, I'm a yantra in something too big for me to even grasp. I hear other people echoing this and it's a beautiful thing to be moving together as a kula, coming into greater awareness of what we are doing here. I'm so grateful. 🧡
Thank you for your contemplations on what is being revealed to you dear Khaela, through a burst of clarity, as you put it. For me too, rewatching session 36 on Remembering and taking notes, along with our Monday Pod, listening to how these teachings are churning in each of us is so helpful. Making sure we give ourselves grace as we walk this path of karma yoga together. 🕉️