Circular curriculum gives greater understanding
Jai Maa Jai Guru Dev. Hola community!
Thank you Shunyaji for last week's satsanga, which I am reviewing today.
After the session I definitely felt a shift in myself. I relaxed more into my life. I began to realize I was trying too hard to get it all right and get to the next level toward moksha (the exact opposite of karma yoga). We are such silly humans, sometimes.
Today, as I relisten I am struck by how this vague shift is becoming more clear to me. Somehow I feel more clear about Ishvara as the one living through "all" of us. It was an idea before - somehow it is now a more felt experience. I am sure this deepening will continue as I review, come to more satsangas, attend pod meetings and practice sadhana.
As you reviewed the REST acronym in the beginning at around 10 minutes into the video, I had a more felt understanding of what it means to remember the Divine before I act and offer my action, empty out my small self and then serve skillfully and transcend.
This took my understanding of strategy deeper - serving skillfully is very relatable to me. Before, transcend was a vague kind of inaccessible mystery to me. You made it concrete - transcend inner agitation, transcend cosmic bondage and samsaric whirlpools.
When the inner agitation releases through the practices of offering, remembering that I am not the author (the divine is the source all my abilities), then when I act I am not trying to get something, but doing the yajna my life has defined for me, so I am not hooked into some need or desire I'm hoping to get as a result, but rather doing my dharma. Thus, I avoid swimming into those samsaric whirlpools and I don't create situations where I get into a loop of unconscious emotion and reaction creating something more to work out through the cycle of karma.
It is so surprising to do this circular kind of study and find my understanding becoming so much more complete, when I thought I had understood the first time. Only just barely! The review allows me to receive this more and more through my own experience.
With much gratitude, for I have wondered for so long what many spiritual ideas really meant! I'm so glad to have been provided with a teacher. Jai Guru Dev❣️❣️❣️
Thank you for your contemplations, Anne. Good to be in a kula.