Ego Indecision
Thank you, Shunyaji, for your strong response to my question. I am facing a heavy, life-changing decision, and my ego is flaring up, trying to stay safe by controlling outcomes. Yet each potential outcome carries its own weight.
I’ve realised that my indecision isn’t a flaw — it’s a signal to pause. This isn’t a choice I can map out three steps ahead. Right now, my task is simply to move when I’m guided: to act, observe, and listen. I can’t rely on logic or emotion alone; it has to be kṛiya.
I trust that I have been guided into this situation to grow and evolve. I haven’t made a final decision yet, but I have moved gracefully toward one. At my centre, I feel calm and non-attached, even though my ego still kicks up a fuss and tries to steer the ship. I know that when the time comes, I will make a decision from a spontaneous place.
This is very helpful to me Gemma. I too am faced with a heavy dilemma. While it won't change my life, whichever way I go holds great implication for the lives of two others and will shift my relationship with them for better or "worse." I can't know the outcome without taking the action. Like you, I've been trying to game it out, control how to have it unfold in a way that guarantees my ego a safe place. The outcome lies not in my own mind but in the field of Ishwara. I wonder if last week's Karma Yoga satsang has helped you as much as it has me. (12/16/25) I only just listened to it, so I need to let it sink in a lot more, but it's already shifted me closer to the dharmic action and further from the gunas playground that's been holding me back.