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I just finished watching the recording of the last Kula session, and my heart feels so full of gratitude for our beloved Guruji. Listening to her brought back memories of my mom’s passing three years ago. I was traveling on December 10th from Los Angeles back home to Italy to see her and, hopefully, spend one last Christmas together as her prognosis was not favorable. I had already spent three months at home caring for her.

The morning of my flight, I received the call I had dreaded—the one I prayed would never come. My mom had died. It was 2 a.m. I froze. The world stopped. I didn’t even have the strength to cry. My daughters were asleep, and I didn’t want to wake them up. I just went back to bed and lay there, trying to gather whatever strength I could for the 12+ hour journey ahead. As Guruji said, in those moments you truly don’t know what you’ll find at home or how you will respond.

My daughters and I made it home safely. Seeing my mom’s body was almost unbearable. My dad was devasted and he could not sop crying. And somehow, seeing him like that ignited my Shakti—this deep, instinctive knowing that I needed to be present for him. Even now, the pain is still there and the grief still rises at times.

Hearing Guruji share her own experience was deeply consoling. Even she who is so much better equipped than me felt grief and shed tears.

On the day of my mom’s funeral, I woke up very early. I sat beside her coffin, and the only thing I could do was recite the Gayatri Mantra. That mantra held me. It carried me through the entire day and gave me the strength to support my dad, my brothers, my daughters, and the rest of my family.  These teachings truly carry us through the hardest passages of life and death.

Thank you, Guruji, for sharing your story. It touched a place inside me that still needed healing.

Jai Guru Deva !